Mom called me this morning to tell me that Blake killed himself. I've been saving this good cry all day, for now. I'm sad and I'm mad. I keep thinking about how Eli is depressed too, and how what if that was him? I just want to be held. But I know I can't get it from Mom... she told me yesterday that she hopes I get this gay thing out of my system. I know I can't get it from Eli, because he won't talk to me. Everyone else is too far away... Hannah, Chelsea, even Adam.
I have no one.